Day 91

Karen is officially 13 weeks old.

She was trying so hard to flip over last saturday night. Everytime she failed to flip over, she cried pitily until i had to pick her up and console her. The next morning, she successfully flip over in front of my eyes. I was so happy to witness her new skill. It happened on Day 86. 

Karen is starting to have a special bond with me. Whenever she cries, only me able to calm her down. No one can except ME. Currently I'm still on breastfeeding. My milk production is low ever since confinement. But nothing could stop me. 

Day 81

Holding Karen in my arm when i type this.

She is direct latching from me currently. Halfsleeping.

I think she has nipple confusion. This is the 3rd day already. She refused to drink from mill bottles.

Day 22

"Hi", said Karen.

Karen was born on the 25 August 2012, one day after her due date. I'm not going to explain the difficult process i went through now. Karen is safe. She is pretty. Very prefect.

Thank God for being so kind to me. Thank you so much. I know sometimes I ask for too many things. But only God could bring me courage and strength to go on.

Baby Karen has rashes on her butt. I really pity her. Some how I could feel her pain. I feel like crying with her.

God, please relief her pain, ok? I beg You, please. She also has digestion problem that results her to spilt out milk after feeding. I hope she could recover as soon as possible.

39W 6D

Two weeks ago, I was so worried and nervous about the delivery.  I kept on reading articles about contraction pain and delivery process.  And also start to imagine those horrible experience I will face during the delivery process.  

One week gone.  I'm still here.  Karen still happy camping inside.  Probably too comfortable and would like to stay longer.  We went to see Dr Lee this morning to check on her.  Everything is fine.  She is fat!  Aikss..  Guess what is her weight now?

She's 3.0kg+!!

Dr Lee says it is the baby who controls the contraction pain.  So Karen has to work extra hard to induce the pain in me so that I can deliver her.


Baby Karen, mummy really hope you can come out now.  Mummy used to tell you to stay inside because during that time your weight is too light, therefore not good to come out as premature baby.  Now you are "ripe" enough to come out.  Mummy and Daddy are waiting for your arrival already.  See you soon sweety!

 

 

39W 2D

Moving into my 39 weeks already.  Karen still happily kicking inside.  "You still don't want to come out, Karen?"

I am currently in waiting mode.  I have started my leave since Monday.  Usually will stay at home online or play with Sasa's puppies.  Keep on washing and clearing messy stuffs while waiting for Karen's arrival too.

Around 1 month ago, I had a dream.  I dream of myself giving birth to Karen.  The experience of giving birth (in the dream) is as easy as pass motion.  I really wish my dream would come true.  But that dream will remain a dream forever la.  "Contraction pain is no joke", a friend told me. 

I have some crampy feeling on my abdomen almost everyday, but nothing serious.  It usually last about 10-15 secs and disappear.  But I have really bad backaches lately.  Someone said she had waist pain during contraction.  So far I do not have any waist pain yet.  

I have a feeling that Karen's head is bumping the piece of sheets that separate her and my vagina.  I also experience some weird feeling on my back.  Is she coming?  Tonight?  :D

Thinking about the delivery really scare me off.  But what to do, it's like judgement day, I can't avoid.

Grandma told me she prayed to God to protect me and lil' Karen that everything will be smooth.  The power of God really calm me and bring me courage.



Dear God, 

It's been a long time since I talked to you.  How are you?  Baby Karen is about to come out very soon and I'm so nervous.  I know you will guide me when I need help every time.  I also believe you could give me courage, strength and strong support to pass through hard times like this.  With YOUR light shining down on me, I could endure whatever pain that comes across me.  I promise I will be a good mother and protect my baby like how you protect me.  Thanks for protecting me throughout the 9 months.  Because of you, I do not get any nauser or any complicated health issue during the whole pregnancy.  Thank you, God.

Yours faithfully.

38W 0D

It's getting near!  It's getting near!!

15 days to go. Oh me... I really don't know how to describe this feeling.  Feeling so mixed.  Happy, anxious, scares, uncertainty and many more.

See how time flies.  I'm going into Week 38!  A big applause to myself! *clap*  It's not easy to "walk" that far.  Carrying a bump which is more than 10kg everyday, suffering from backaches since month 4, having to eat supplements everyday and taking care of my body and health.

I'm going for maternity leave next week.  But I have a feeling I will deliver out Karen either this week or next week.  Woohh... 

I've been wondering how contractions feels like.  Last Friday when I was having dinner with Hubby at Tarot Cafe.  Almost finish my meal, I had a very bad feeling in my stomach.  I don't feel well.  I could feel lots of gas in my stomach.  The feeling is a bit like gastric.  Cramp all over and feel like going to the washroom.  I told Hubby to leave that place and head home.  When I reached home, I felt much better.  I quickly pack my hospital bag for the final round, clear the mess in the house, and took a warm shower plus washing my hair.  After I passed motion and finish bathing, the pain was gone although I still have a little bit of cramp on my tummy :S   After that Karen was kicking happily inside, hmm... teasing at mummy ya??  I was so ready that night.  If anything happens middle of the night, take my bag and go to hospital.  But eventually, nothing happens until morning.  It's a false alarm! :D

After that Friday, I was mentally prepared that I will go into labour anytime.  I washed Karen's bedsheets and prepared her bed on Saturday.  On Sunday, Hubby and I went to General Hospital to survey where to park our car and which floor is the labour ward.    

Then two days ago (Monday) after shopping for groceries, I got into my car and ouch... there's another pain.  This pain is different.  Something like period pain. The same question popped into my head: "Am I going for labour again?"  After pain for 1 min like that, it ends.  I guess this is how a braxton hicks feels like.  Braxton Hicks is false contractions.  Not as pain as real contractions.  After my Braxton Hicks, I still can go shop for some bread and went home.  

I've told Karen on Monday that we are going for Japanese Cuisine.  Then going for another Western Fusion on Tuesday.  So she better behave well inside.  Then before my Western Fusion last night, I started to have back pain.  After the meal, I started to have hard stomach.  I read in some websites that this is sign of labour too.  Tummy will turn as hard as rock, have back pain and period pain at the same time.  Some says the feeling is like want to go for a poop.  So the whole night I have tummy as hard as rock, and suffering from period pain.  But still, nothing happens.

Giving birth is a process cannot be avoided.  No matter I like it or not, I'm going to General Hospital and do my best to deliver out Karen.  Others can do it, why can't I right?  

I'm having hard stomach again now.  I don't think it is Karen stretching inside.  It's the expanding of my uterus to get ready for delivery.  I also having lots of gas in my stomach.  Feel like pooping too.

Karen, mummy and daddy loves you.  We are going to see you soon.  Remember to smile when you meet mummy ya? ;D


 

33W 5D

Baby Karen has been making lots of hiccups everyday.  I think more than 4 times a day and it lasts about 3-5 mins each time. Before I experienced a baby hiccup inside my stomach, I used to wonder how does it feels like. 

I first experienced it was like 1 month ago. I kept on feeling heart beat rhythm near my pelvis area, usually very near to my batok. At first I thought it was Karen's heart beat. But for god's sake, why go and press her heart near my batok?  Then I remember baby usually has faster heart beat, so very unlikely this one belongs to my baby's heart.  My husband has been telling me it's baby's kick.  Awww... Karen doesn't kick in rhythm for more than 2 mins loh~ So it's impossible the sound coming from baby's kicking.

After sometime, I finally figure out what it is.  It is the hiccups from my baby :D  I start to imagine Baby Karen burping inside.  How cute.  But pity her at the same time.  I doesn't like hiccups.  It's torturing because it makes you tired really fast.  I bet Karen doesn't like it either.  I read in some article that baby hiccups inside the womb because they are developing their lungs and learning how to breathe.  So Karen is a fast learner and very hardworking too!

Every morning when hubby's handphone alarm went off, I will need to ask him to switch off his phone alarm because it is bugging me.  Every time I talked to my husband, Baby Karen starts to kick me.  Many times I was really tired that I didn't even want to bother her kicks.  But this girl goes and kick kick kick until I have no choice but to wake up.  It looks like she could hear me clearly from inside.  After I woke up, she will snooze back to sleep.  Isshh...


Many of my friends start to give birth.  Two of them gave birth at Week 36 and 37.  If I'm going to have a pre-matured birth just like the two of them, I will be giving birth end of this month, which is another 3 weeks to go!  OMG.. makes me really tension & nervous niah~

I started cleaning and washing baby's clothes and my clothes to welcome Baby Karen.  I've also started to pack my hospital bag. Around 80% complete. Next is to clean confinement lady's room and wash all the rugs at home.  Should be done by next weekend.