Baby is 19 weeks old today ;P
3 more days for daddy to come home.
I read in some pregnancy books, they did mentioned that Pregnant Women are very emotional. Yup, I totally agree with them ;) It's really hard for me to hide my emotions lately....
I'm feeling much better today. I woke up feeling sad and moody. I also have puffy sore eyes due to the cried last night. I came home in the afternoon to take rest. The house feels so empty. It is no more a home without hubby here. I went back to my sad moody mode feeling pity for myself :(
Suddenly while working today, received a message left by hubby via Facebook! I was so excited. Hubby can online at Kawaguchi Hotel! They have free WIFI at the lobby..! I was so happy when I know that he can use the WIFI for free. I do not need to suffer like last night anymore.
I chatted with hubby for about an hour in Facebook this evening. I think that contribute why I'm feeling better today. After my dinner, hubby called me and we chatted for about 6 mins.
We still have 3 days to count down. 2 lonely nights and I will see him already.
Hubby told me he bought two branded designer bags for me and some clothes for baby. Knowing that he had bought us some presents from Japan really melts my heart. Most importantly, with or without those presents are not important at all, I just want him to be home with me.
Thanks God for being so kind to me today. I know You can't bare seeing me crying again tonight. Thank you so much for passing this difficult times with me.
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
18W 6D
Tomorrow our baby is 19 Weeks old. I can feel baby moving inside my stomach. So far no kicking yet. Sometimes the movement of baby makes me feel painful. But it's alright. At least I know baby is happy swimming inside.
Today is a bad day for me. Hubby is on working holiday in Japan right now. He departed Kuching on Sunday, leaving behind me and baby. While driving back from the airport, I was thinking maybe I should have accompanied him until he check-in departure hall. But I ended up continue driving home.
Last night was the first night Hubby in Japan. He did called me in the afternoon telling me he is very cold. I guess he called me at a shopping mall via public phone. He said he used 300 Yen to call back here. Then last night he bought a prepaid card to call back. We talked about 3 mins. He told me he bought some cosmetics and beauty products for me. Whee... I was so happy. But when he told me the price, I become very guilty. Cost him 9000 Yen loh. Aiksss.
After my dinner last night, I went home to check my facebook, he left some messages for me. He went to Business Centre to online, which cost him 100Yen for 15 mins. After reading his messages, I suddenly miss him a lot and cried...
Today I'm even worst.
I cried like a baby for around 5 mins in front of Sasa. That stupid dog must think I'm crazy. He called me a bit late today as he had dinner with their principals. When I reached home, I bumped into him on Facebook. We chatted for 15 mins. Hubby reloaded another 100 Yen to chat with me when the time about to finish. When he told me he left with 30 seconds, tears started rolling down my cheeks and I could feel my body shaking in tears. I was staring my screen crying. Even now when I'm writing this, my eyes are covered with tears.
Haiz.... I didn't know I can miss my hubby so badly. I guess our baby misses his "Booboo" sound too.
I always thought that I'm a strong independent person. Today proves me wrong. I'm actually very weak. I remember during my college years, I told my good friend not to step into a serious relationship as it will break our heart when the other party rejects us. I told her proudly that I'm only stepping in with one leg. The other one still outside. Anything bad happens, I just jumped out from the "circle". 8 years passed, hubby and I got married. I've put all my trust to this guy but I still think that I could still stand alone if anything happen. It looks like I'm no more an independent person. I've surrendered not just my both legs into the "circle", but together with my soul. Oh dear.
Every time when hubby went for business traveling, I'm very happy. Because I know I can have "me" time, occupy the whole bed by myself and no one to annoyed me. This trip is totally different. He is so far away from me until the extend I can't contact him at all.
Baby, we just need to bare for another 4 days to go to see daddy again. Today I'm going to accompany you, but I cannot make the "Booboo" sound to you ok. Have to wait daddy back to make that sound :)
I better stop writing now. I can feel tears going to roll down my cheeks again. Hais.
Today is a bad day for me. Hubby is on working holiday in Japan right now. He departed Kuching on Sunday, leaving behind me and baby. While driving back from the airport, I was thinking maybe I should have accompanied him until he check-in departure hall. But I ended up continue driving home.
Last night was the first night Hubby in Japan. He did called me in the afternoon telling me he is very cold. I guess he called me at a shopping mall via public phone. He said he used 300 Yen to call back here. Then last night he bought a prepaid card to call back. We talked about 3 mins. He told me he bought some cosmetics and beauty products for me. Whee... I was so happy. But when he told me the price, I become very guilty. Cost him 9000 Yen loh. Aiksss.
After my dinner last night, I went home to check my facebook, he left some messages for me. He went to Business Centre to online, which cost him 100Yen for 15 mins. After reading his messages, I suddenly miss him a lot and cried...
Today I'm even worst.
I cried like a baby for around 5 mins in front of Sasa. That stupid dog must think I'm crazy. He called me a bit late today as he had dinner with their principals. When I reached home, I bumped into him on Facebook. We chatted for 15 mins. Hubby reloaded another 100 Yen to chat with me when the time about to finish. When he told me he left with 30 seconds, tears started rolling down my cheeks and I could feel my body shaking in tears. I was staring my screen crying. Even now when I'm writing this, my eyes are covered with tears.
Haiz.... I didn't know I can miss my hubby so badly. I guess our baby misses his "Booboo" sound too.
I always thought that I'm a strong independent person. Today proves me wrong. I'm actually very weak. I remember during my college years, I told my good friend not to step into a serious relationship as it will break our heart when the other party rejects us. I told her proudly that I'm only stepping in with one leg. The other one still outside. Anything bad happens, I just jumped out from the "circle". 8 years passed, hubby and I got married. I've put all my trust to this guy but I still think that I could still stand alone if anything happen. It looks like I'm no more an independent person. I've surrendered not just my both legs into the "circle", but together with my soul. Oh dear.
Every time when hubby went for business traveling, I'm very happy. Because I know I can have "me" time, occupy the whole bed by myself and no one to annoyed me. This trip is totally different. He is so far away from me until the extend I can't contact him at all.
Baby, we just need to bare for another 4 days to go to see daddy again. Today I'm going to accompany you, but I cannot make the "Booboo" sound to you ok. Have to wait daddy back to make that sound :)
I better stop writing now. I can feel tears going to roll down my cheeks again. Hais.
Friday, March 16, 2012
17W 2D
HAPPY 17th WEEK, BABY!!
Mummy went for check up two weeks ago. I saw you very big already (8cm+). You were waving your hands and legs when Dr Lee ultra scan my stomach. Dr Lee said you are healthy. You look gorgeous, Baby!
But we still can't figure out your gender. Nevermind, Mummy can wait. Actually Mummy not eager to know your gender la. Because no matter you are a boy or girl, Mummy will love you more than anything.
Two days ago Mummy went for check up at government clinic. Mummy reached there at 2pm. Aduh, the places was packed. Mummy got No.35 and find a place to sit down. Do you know how long Mummy waited there? 4.30pm only my turn. I was so hungry that time, so were you. Finish checkup at 5pm sharp. What a tiring day for me and you.
Sometimes I can feel you very active inside my stomach. But I'm yet to feel physical kick from you. I started to have some backache. Not feeling good to sleep facing the ceiling anymore. But Mummy loves swimming. Mummy brings you swimming again next week, ok?
Baby, you must stay healthy healthy ok. Don't make Mummy worry. Can't wait to see you in August!
But we still can't figure out your gender. Nevermind, Mummy can wait. Actually Mummy not eager to know your gender la. Because no matter you are a boy or girl, Mummy will love you more than anything.
Two days ago Mummy went for check up at government clinic. Mummy reached there at 2pm. Aduh, the places was packed. Mummy got No.35 and find a place to sit down. Do you know how long Mummy waited there? 4.30pm only my turn. I was so hungry that time, so were you. Finish checkup at 5pm sharp. What a tiring day for me and you.
Sometimes I can feel you very active inside my stomach. But I'm yet to feel physical kick from you. I started to have some backache. Not feeling good to sleep facing the ceiling anymore. But Mummy loves swimming. Mummy brings you swimming again next week, ok?
Baby, you must stay healthy healthy ok. Don't make Mummy worry. Can't wait to see you in August!
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