38W 0D

It's getting near!  It's getting near!!

15 days to go. Oh me... I really don't know how to describe this feeling.  Feeling so mixed.  Happy, anxious, scares, uncertainty and many more.

See how time flies.  I'm going into Week 38!  A big applause to myself! *clap*  It's not easy to "walk" that far.  Carrying a bump which is more than 10kg everyday, suffering from backaches since month 4, having to eat supplements everyday and taking care of my body and health.

I'm going for maternity leave next week.  But I have a feeling I will deliver out Karen either this week or next week.  Woohh... 

I've been wondering how contractions feels like.  Last Friday when I was having dinner with Hubby at Tarot Cafe.  Almost finish my meal, I had a very bad feeling in my stomach.  I don't feel well.  I could feel lots of gas in my stomach.  The feeling is a bit like gastric.  Cramp all over and feel like going to the washroom.  I told Hubby to leave that place and head home.  When I reached home, I felt much better.  I quickly pack my hospital bag for the final round, clear the mess in the house, and took a warm shower plus washing my hair.  After I passed motion and finish bathing, the pain was gone although I still have a little bit of cramp on my tummy :S   After that Karen was kicking happily inside, hmm... teasing at mummy ya??  I was so ready that night.  If anything happens middle of the night, take my bag and go to hospital.  But eventually, nothing happens until morning.  It's a false alarm! :D

After that Friday, I was mentally prepared that I will go into labour anytime.  I washed Karen's bedsheets and prepared her bed on Saturday.  On Sunday, Hubby and I went to General Hospital to survey where to park our car and which floor is the labour ward.    

Then two days ago (Monday) after shopping for groceries, I got into my car and ouch... there's another pain.  This pain is different.  Something like period pain. The same question popped into my head: "Am I going for labour again?"  After pain for 1 min like that, it ends.  I guess this is how a braxton hicks feels like.  Braxton Hicks is false contractions.  Not as pain as real contractions.  After my Braxton Hicks, I still can go shop for some bread and went home.  

I've told Karen on Monday that we are going for Japanese Cuisine.  Then going for another Western Fusion on Tuesday.  So she better behave well inside.  Then before my Western Fusion last night, I started to have back pain.  After the meal, I started to have hard stomach.  I read in some websites that this is sign of labour too.  Tummy will turn as hard as rock, have back pain and period pain at the same time.  Some says the feeling is like want to go for a poop.  So the whole night I have tummy as hard as rock, and suffering from period pain.  But still, nothing happens.

Giving birth is a process cannot be avoided.  No matter I like it or not, I'm going to General Hospital and do my best to deliver out Karen.  Others can do it, why can't I right?  

I'm having hard stomach again now.  I don't think it is Karen stretching inside.  It's the expanding of my uterus to get ready for delivery.  I also having lots of gas in my stomach.  Feel like pooping too.

Karen, mummy and daddy loves you.  We are going to see you soon.  Remember to smile when you meet mummy ya? ;D